Friday, July 22, 2011

What's The Point?

What's the point doesn't mean, "What is the point of us doing this?"  I know why we are doing this - better health, weight loss, more energy, clarity of mind, etc, etc...  I guess the question for us is what is the point at which we will be done?  When people find out you are on a diet, the first question they ask is about how much weight you want to lose.  I never know how to answer this question.  Do I need to get it down to the pound, ounce, or stone?  Also, having a fixed weight implies that there will be an end to the healthy changes you have made.  I've lost X pounds, now I can go back to eating junk food and hitting up the drive throughs.  It doesn't work that way.  If I am making healthy changes to my eating habits, why would I not want to continue them?  Even if I didn't lose anymore weight, the health benefits have been huge for both of us already.  Cholesterol is good again, blood pressure is headed in the right direction, my arthritis has been way more manageable, and I no longer suffer from frequent nausea.  So what is the point, the point at which I will feel skinny enough?  I don't know.  This morning I put on a pair of jeans that a year ago did not fit at all.  I couldn't even zip them up.  Now they are on the big side.  Yet, I still look in the mirror and see a fat person, not a person who has lost a fair amount of weight thus far.  When will I be able to vision myself as something other than fat or chunky?  I know when I was my thinnist, about 7 years ago, and can't picture in my mind ever being thinner than that.  I need to learn how to envision myself as someone else.  I am looking forward to meeting this new person.

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